Magic!

Finally....It's over! Not that I'm glad that it's over, but I'm glad it went well. At least from what I could see from backstage and what little tricks I had to help with. The "Danny Zzzz" Magic Show yesterday at Governor Simcoe School was a charitable event so this time we didn't get paid, but the money raised went toward the Parnell School so they could get new play equipment for the children along with other gym equipment they may need. It's a great cause! It was a great stage! Going back to our old stage will be quite crowded - especially on my side of the stage!

I had a lot of fun, and I'm thinking of changing my resume to add that I also am a stage actress. Won't that add for a great interview too! Well, it will make me a well rounded artist wouldn't it? I've had dreams of being on stage for something more serious. Real acting....Well, I guess we'll see about that, huh? LOL!

Oh, I almost forgot...I went to the Yesworld.com website and saw that Roger Dean is going to be creating an animation movie based on his floating islands. I can't wait to see this! I will definately get the DVD when it comes out too! I think his artwork is magic too. I should write to let him know that I like reproducing his artwork on computer and paint - not airbrushing yet. I hope he's able to raise the money too to get this started. I can't wait to see it!

So it's almost the end of the month and I hope everything will just continue to get better and better. I heard that the car companies are thinking of making hydrogen cars - perhaps I'll think of driving. Something to think about...Me driving....LOL!

Day 20

This is the place where imagination begins...Sitting in front of a computer and contemplating the words I wish to relay on the ways in which I think. It is sad that all the things that I want to say I still feel that I will say something incorrectly and someone (maybe even myself) may become offended at the words I write. I shouldn't have to worry, after all this is MY blog site! I know there are so many of them on the internet now that what I write shouldn't make a difference to anyone - especially in what I write! I am also writing things that could drastically change later on. Right now is what I write but later it could be in a totally different direction and I may not agree with the things I wrote earlier....Although I do know when I wrote in my journal or in my alternative books...or THE BOOK over 10 years ago, and go back on it to reflect I can understand why I wrote the things I did and hope that things have changed from that point. Although some things never do and there is nothing that I can do about that! Anyways, I'm still contemplating my art and how I think I need an agent or someone to help sell my art and get my name recognized. I also have to find out about learning to air-brush. I really would like to learn, it could be a new change in my artwork completely. It could be good or bad, but I will have to look a little deeper into that. In the meantime I will let the snow thaw and continue to do some kind of artwork until I am able to get out more in the spring....The work in THE BOOK continues, it is almost complete....hee-hee-hee (evil snicker)

Day 11

I seem like I'm forever trying to get myself motivated to create something "brilliant" or "incredible", something no one has ever done before. And in doing that become completely satisfied with the way my life is. But in a nutshell I'm still struggling. Am I the only one?

What I want is to be able to market my talents be it for artwork or makeup artist or graphic artist; to show myself as the best creative person in all of the world. To be sought after for my abilities, that would be wonderful, but what I'm use to being is underpaid and not in the right place in my life right now. This year I will pick up where I left off last year which is trying to get people interested in my artwork. I would like to make a living at it; and maybe have a little more money to put aside for a rainy day. I have plenty of those already! Perhaps with having a blog, it will force me into seeing my goals written upon my website and become motivated enough to pursue them more dilligently. Here's hoping anyways!

Happy 2005 New Year!!

Now I'm going to have to get use to labelling everything 2oo5...When I was young it was almost tradition to dress up the family and go out into the cold weather just to visit my dad's friends houses. We'd amuse ourselves while my dad would enjoy all the spirits of the season...And then we'd come home and watch the ball drop (if we could stay awake that long), and then everyone would hug and cry on the passing of the year.

Now, most of the Holiday Season has been quiet. We (my husband and I) spend it with eachother being comfortable, happy and content. We praise the passing of the year hoping the next year will be better than the last. No more crying, no more confusion and tension...Very peaceful. Don't get me wrong I miss my father and I miss the visiting but now that I'm older I realize that a lot of the confusion, crying and tension was all based on too much of the "spirits" taking over our lives.

I worry and fret about those who still live in that environment and why they put up with it. I used to because I didn't know any different because I was so young, but now I'm older and I won't ever go back to the way it used to be. This is a great life and I'm thankful for every day and I want it to expand and share it with my family and friends the best I can. I can't make everyone understand my way of thinking but I hope that they come to realize that a new year means a new way of living, not falling back into the same cycle of confusion year after year.

Love and peace to all! Yes is the answer!

Kim